I have been clearing my leave and recuperating at home for this week.
All was well until now... ... I am extremely disgusted with people's attempt to tamper with my work, and to discredit me further. It is also unfortunately an oversight of mine, for not taking that additional step to prevent sabotage.
I was supposed to be doing some "audit checks" on a number of colleagues, and to provide closure on their behalf, something which translates to manipulating the outcome/score of the department customer experience. I should have rejected upfront when I was first instructed to place that damn file into the common shared folder, it was not at all protected, and anyone can have access to amend the records inside. I am now being "questioned", and I have provided the "unlawful" an avenue to commit more "crimes".
I should not have been so trusting. I am the sole person-in-charge of this job, without a maker-checker system in place, this is surely an audit flaw. I have already pointed that out previously, but I did not pursue any further to implement it. Again, it's my fault!
This matter involves integrity, not just mine but everyone in the department. It is very disheartening, when one's effort has been questioned. I have always put in 110% effort in my tasks, and I did it with pride, just when I am about to leave this place, the dirty hands of office politics finally caught hold of me.
Of course, I have fellow colleagues who knew that I have been doing this diligently. I am tired of all these nonsense, I had overcome so many years of back stabbing, and I came out clean! I did not do my very best to foul-proof my work, if the results have been tampered, and I do not keep tab with the findings, then I jolly well deserved this outcome. Lesson learnt!
Just last week, my department head mentioned about receiving a letter that was sent anonymously to her, a letter that provides a long list of "crimes" committed by our immediate supervisors. My goodness, how childish can one be?
Even if there is any element of truth, a letter without a sign-off would lacks the credibility. My department head was extremely affected by this second "poisonous" letter, and sternly warned us that this will be regarded as a clear indication of insubordination. Judging from the way she delivered her dagger stares, she clearly has 2 suspects in mind. Such petty approach would only reflects the maturity of the author, and dampen any future prospects (if any).
My department is well known for its rumour-mongers, gossipers, and back stabbers. Of course, this letter threw everyone in the department into an red alert mode. We have new blood coming in to replace the older ones, it is necessary to stem out all negativity to ensure harmonious environment, and to retain capable staffs.
Conclusion: It is a huge jungle out there, and many big cats are forever sharpening their deadly claws. Even if I have been making a conscious effort to stay out of the fray, it is almost impossible not to be sucked into this whirlpool of madness.
"It's the strong who comes up on top, one must have power before others will reason with you."
Of course, one must always exercise power with caution. The power to change things should never be abused for personal gains.
I have been losing tons of weight recently, despite trying very hard to keep up with my meals, but I just do not have the appetite to finish them. There are times when I will gorge myself silly, but there are times where I totally feel no hunger pangs after long hours of empty stomach.
