Who cares what you think of me?

I have again resume my job searching, not in an active mode, but I guess I could afford to check out market rate and plan my next move.  By April 2014, I would be in this current company for a year.  I must admit that I am not used to the flat hierarchy.

I can't help disliking the toxic environment that those women are creating, it is always difficult when the ratio of female outnumbered the males, it's even difficult when the organisation has only 130 headcount. I never work well with women, I always find them petty when it comes to minor issues, mostly ruled by emotions and not level headedness enough.  Just a simple issue and it can be made a mountain out of a molehill, all thanks to those empty vessels.

I attended a course earlier this month, and the lecturer told me in private, "Jo, I was thinking to myself that "Wow! This girl has very strong resilience" when I see you sitting quietly in the class.  I am a psychologist, and I observed everyone, do you know that when you are so strong in resilient, that you actually intimidate people?"

I was caught dumbfound, because he really understood my plight.  People always think that I am confident and not an easy character to deal with, so I am perceived as unapproachable and unfriendly to most.

Men enjoy working with me, because I think big, and no small actions coming from me when it comes to work.  But women thinks that men like to work with me for every wrong reasons.  I am not the one oozing sex appeal, be it deliberately or unintentionally, I am unlike some woman who self-declared as a sexy siren, but in reality, men thinks that she is fat, ugly from head to toe, and lousy character inside out, and top it off with a foul mouth.

My boss is a forty-plus spinster, who really irks everyone to the max.  She is the worst communicator around, and lacks the graciousness.  Someone who cannot differentiate work life and personal life. Whatever it is, she has been a bad example, one that I promise myself that I will not ever be. Let's not be angry when people say that Women are lousy superiors, I can voucher for that, and I will strive not to be like one of them.

Whatever it is, learn as much as I can, accumulate as much experience as I can, then exit to a higher grounds.  There is really a limit to my tolerance towards nonsensical hormonal monsoon.