Hello hello, I'm back! Super long disappearance from this little space of mine. I miss this little piece of me, have been dying to get back to blogging.Plenty of things happened since my last post:- a change in job role, a change in hair length, a tweak in mentality, a brand new direction, a fresh surge of unhappiness.
Somehow I knew my chances for a promotion were high this year, after all I did fare better than the previous year. I'm a down-to-earth person, where I always believe in doing the best and to wait for the opportunities to come, however I am also fully aware that sometimes I may never get to hear that knock on my door too.
Things just changed almost instantaneously, a 180 degree change in colleagues' behaviour. Well, that I can fathom as their fears finally turn into a reality. Face it, even if this didn't happen, they will still be the eventual losers. Expected heavier responsibility includes managing a team, that is a challenge, for it takes more than just having people's skills, its a whole new set of management skills to be developed. I'm getting the hang of it, and in due course, I will emerge strongly than before.
On 10th April, 3/4 of my hair was axed off. My hairstylist, Catherine, was shocked at my request, because I have been wanting to princess curl my hair. But I hate that haggard reflection in the mirror, so I thought let's freshen up that listless look, restless mood with a new look. Geesh, come to think of it, I have no new pictures to show you yet. Shall try to upload ya =)
Since April till now, speed tripled with the increase of challenges, unknowingly I have invited a new source of pressure into my life. I am indeed a true blue Sagittarius, I hate being tied down. I have a strong ally at work, but she has a nature of an octopus, and her tentacles suffocates me. Not that I'm no good in my work that requires her special attention. But I have the "privilege" of being her PA, at her beck and call. Any non-working hours are my personal time, however her calls never seems to stop, her heavy relying starts weighting me down.'
Today is the start of my leave, will only be back in the office on July '2010. I need a break from her. But in the wee morning today, I was enlightened by an harsh soul, his perspective of my woes is entirely different, "if you cannot manage your boss, how can you manage a team?". That gave me a awakening slap! *oUch*
Indeed, I felt bitter hearing his remarks, but deep inside I know it does make sense. No one can put shackles on me, there are always choices out there. If I have no means to influence uncontrollable factors, at least I have the ability to control my inner self. Easier said than done, but I am willing to try.
