Solitude journeys

I always love going on a bus journey alone.  One that allows me to watch the scenery goes by, and of course I must be seated beside the window, so that I can enjoy the journey better.

It must be a familiar route, so that I do not need to keep a lookout for my alighting bus stop.  The journey must be at least 45 minutes, so that I can truly have a quiet moment of my own.  It is an amazing experience.  Imagine being in a confined, yet moving environment, in the midst of a crowd, feeling alone but not that lonely.  It is a complex, yet simple feeling that puts me at ease.

I always feel the need to be alone, but retreating into my sanctuary aka my bedroom no longer appeals to me.  Unlike the pent up frustrations that stays within the bedroom walls, my thoughts and worries seem to slip away under the moving bus wheels.  My needs for personal space seems to evolve as time goes by.

Perhaps the notion of a one-way ticket will soon overpowered me.

BFF

Met up with my BFF, Anna, last Thursday for a soft diet meal at Crystal Jade Restaurant.

I love their chicken congee, always so smooth and has a pleasing texture to the throat.  They used to have a variety of Dim Sums available on their menu previously, but I didn't seem to see it anywhere this time. 

Was horrified by her stories, and yet always eager to hear more from her.  She is my long lost twin sister, one who shares my thoughts, but execute actions differently from me.  It doesn't take much to communicate my feelings to her, and yes, she understands my inner struggles totally. 

If I can swopped roles with her for a week, my mum will definitely be in for a hard time *haHa* She could set my life back on track, like a Hogwarts Professor with a flick of her wand.  Banish those who treats me carelessly.  I wanna be like a Queen, just like her, she who understands that loving oneself is important.  If only I had love myself more, will I be in a better position then?  

Why is everyone so oblivious to my needs for security?  Somehow people always have a misconception of me.  Those who don't know me, constantly falls onto me for support.  Those who knows me, holds me close, for they know how frail I am.  Those who stood behind me are those who tirelessly support me whenever I run to them with tears...

Do not love me for a reason.  Love me for what I am.

Episode 2: The Adventures of PMT (铁牙公主历险记）

*siGh* I was supposed to have my lower braces fixed today... but I had to postpone it to next week instead.  I had a relapse recently (due to my autoimmune condition), my doctors had a discussion, and all agreed that I should not go ahead with the Orthodontic treatment till my relapse recovered.

Nobody in the office realised I had my MT with me, I didn't encounter any problem in my daily work as well.  The past 2 weeks has been fairly enjoyable being a PMT, not much pain derived from the physical braces, but the surgery that I had for my wisdom tooth is still bothering me big time.  It has been 1.5 months since the surgery, but my wound is still aching and is preventing me from eating well too. Since the surgery till now, I have lost 3kg, and with no doubts, I will lose even more once my lower braces is on.

Well, I have to admit that the first 3 days with the top braces wasn't that fantastic.  This is the period where the teeth started shifting into places, and experiencing sore gums is absolutely normal.  Survived the first week with only soft diet, and somehow I just simply lost the urge to eat.  Now that my surgery wound still hurts, I cannot consume anything that is above room temperature too :(

One dear friend managed to whet up my appetite by tempting me with my favourite Tamago sushi, and I had 4 of it in a row ;)  I am still using the meal replacement milk as a supplement for my daily nutrients intake thou.

Hopefully with enough rest, my relapse will recover over the next few days, so that I can have my lower MT next saturday!

感伤篇 - 涟漪

心若如莲台，为何入莲池

涟漪水中起，思绪万般涕

心有千千语，不知从何提

涟漪无踪影，望叹无从寻

Indulgence (Part 2)

Ok, this posting is again for you ladies :)



From front to back (clockwise): Tony Moly Hand Mask, Nivea Extra Whitening Cell Repair & Protect Body Milk, and Tok Tok Pro-Touch Vibrating Makeup Puff



I was very tempted to try this Nivea Extra Whitening Cell Repair & Protect Body Milk.  Imagine having 50 times of Vitamin C and antioxidants in a bottle! I couldn't resist it, as it was indeed waving hard at me, screaming "take me home, take me home" from the pharmacy shelves.  I am very particular about body moisturiser, and this has none of those nasty-sticky-feel, and I really love the cherry scent on my skin.

Verdict:  To really test this product out, I had tried this daily (before bedtime) for consecutively 10 days, and stop using it for 2 weeks, and today my skin still feels soft and supple.  Not so sure about the whitening effect though because I have a fair complexion to begin with, I supposed I can only be sure of this when I complete this bottle.  Forget about those expensive body moisturisers, for 400ml, and less than $10.00 per bottle.  I would rate is 4 out of 5.

I have tried a few of Tony Moly's products previously, mostly because of their cute containers, but frankly no surprises at all.  Gotten this Tony Moly Hand Mask because I feel that my hands could do some pampering as well.

Verdict:  Either my hands are too rough for any remedy cure, or my current hand moisturiser is doing a good job.  No significant before or after feel.  The apple scent was considered pleasantly pleasing to the nose.  I have forgotten the price for this hand mask, and unlikely a repeat purchase. 

Made another purchase from Groupon again, this time I bought Tok Tok Pro-Touch Vibrating Makeup Puff.  This is made in Korea, and claims to provide the user a natural makeup effect and a more beautiful skin at the same time.

This is a vibrating device that comes with four puff heads: foundation, powder, cleansing and massage.  Basically it vibrates 120,000 times per minutes to help creates an even foundation coverage, it also helps to improve the blood circulation and thus a healthy skin.  So you could use it along with your liquid foundation, loose/pressed power, cleansing or massage products, just by changing the puff heads.

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Verdict: $48.90 for a multifunctional (skincare and makeup) cosmetic tool is a good buy for me.  Normal retail price is SGD 115.  Tried it with my liquid foundation yesterday, and even with my clumsy application, it does provides an even coverage, and there was indeed a tingling sensation beneath the skin too, which I guess was the blood circulation effect.  I have yet to start using this in my normal regime, because as usual, I am l~a~z~y! I shall give you an update once I try this out for my skincare too.

Oh ya! Remember the Tsuya Tsuya Angel's Eye Intense Serum? (Refer to my posting on 16 July 2012 ), I have noticed my right eyelashes has grown quite a fair bit (much more than the left eyelashes... Opps!), my eyelashes does looked stronger and thicker now. Yeah~ ~ :) *blink blink*

The Adventures of PMT (铁牙公主历险记)

PMT means premenstrual tension, which happens to 75% of the ladies, before or during their menstrual period.

But PMT here means Princess with Metal Teeth, aka 铁牙公主。For my non-chinese readers, it reads as "tie ya gong zhu"

I am now officially declared as a PMT, had my first arc (top braces) yesterday morning.  I have been very excited about having my braces on, and has been patiently waiting for 11 August to come.  My dental appointment on 14 July, was to extract my wisdom tooth and a few other tooth to make way for my braces.  The surgery cut for the wisdom tooth has yet to fully recover, my right cheeks is still puffy, and it still hurts to open my mouth wide.  Please be aware that I am one of those who do not recover easily with any cuts or injuries, and they take ages to heal, so please handle me with care ya *wiNk*

Anyway, I still went ahead with the top braces, was making a lot of noises when Dr Ho tries to expand my mouth, and can you believe it, my lower lip was bleeding during the procedure, it just tears up because of the force exerted.  So now I have a wound right in the middle of my bottom lip :( 

Dr Ho has to apply glue onto the surface of my teeth, so that he could stick on the brackets (those squares that sits in the middle of a tooth so as to hold the wire securely), then shone blue light across my teeth, this action will dried up the glue and secured the brackets.  Then an arc-shaped wire was inserted into my mouth, and positioned to fill in between the single bracket, which was then closed up for a snug fit.

I was smiling when I saw those brackets on my teeth (No! I am not crazy!).  In fact the braces stays hidden even when I open my mouth to speak, that is the benefit for having a small mouth *evil laugh*.  The assistant nurse told me to run my tongue across my braces "to get a feel of it"! Ok, here is another secret, I have a very short tongue as well, in fact, I couldn't even ran my tongue across my teeth *siGh*

I love my braces, but the pain came after a few hours later... *sObz*  It has not cause me any major problem (yet) like most of my friends encountered, but my front teeth hurts terribly (because the teeth are trying to move into the correct positions), and again I couldn't chew properly.  I had only managed to start eating well after my last dental procedure on 21 July (removal of the stitches inside my mouth), and now I have to go back to my milk diet again.  Luckily I heeded Dr Ho's advise to fix the lower braces in another 2 weeks time.

Well, tomorrow will be a challenging day at work, first day in the office with my braces on.  How am I gonna cope with talking non-stop on the phone, and let me see if any of my colleagues realised my MT's existence. Oh! I have an appointment with a lecher client tomorrow, let me flash my MT at him if he tries to be funny with me.

Hungry ~ ~ Time for milk!!!

Bye Bye July, Hello August

Phew!  What a month July has been!

Watched "Ice Age 4", and was laughing so hard in the cinema.  Not bad for a stress reliver, although I seriously cannot recall a single plot of the storyline.

Attended EXSA last Monday, and was again amazed at how dedicated and passionate some people are about customer service.  It could be an inborn trait, or a skill accquired during the course of work, and not forgetting plenty of encounters with demanding customers that shapes the service mindset.  A veteran of the banking industry for 35 years, and a fourth time getting an EXSA Star award is definitely worth a standing ovation.

Was in a mad, mad rush again to complete my CSR Part 2 assignment on Thursday, in just less than 24 hours before submission time on 3 August before 7pm.  Yes yes yes, Opps I did it again!  Thank god that I managed to spot "Lee Burke" article in the midst of the (horrendously thick) lecture notes, and decided to use that theory framework for my analysis.  By 2am in the morning, I was sending distress signal to my coursemate, and he was in shock when I started discussing Burke's theory with him.  Getting panicky is no good especially when the deadline is fast approaching, after much discussion, he will ploughed on without Burke, while I holding on to Burke desperately for my dear life.

Last minute work, mad rush, struggled till 4am and it was finally done. Not my best individual piece of work, but nevertheless glad to get rid of it.  But alas, I couldn't print my assignment as I wasn't aware that I ran of of plain paper.  Slept for less than 3 hours, and was in a zombie state in the office.  The whole episode only ended when I rushed to submit my precious work during lunch time, and came the finale... I was drenched from head-to-toe in the heavy downpour, and started shivering with cold in the office.

Imagine the blissful state I was in when I finally get to rest my poor bones on my bed.

Then came the news from my coursemate:- most of our coursemates adopted the Burke's framework, which came as a relief to me, and naturally bad news to him :( Now I could only wait and see if I can scrape through this module.