S.O.S please

I have been swarmed by work, and still in the midst of the whirlpool.

Endless negotiation of contracts, and more to come.... Endless meetings and work group discussions to attend..... Endless fire fighting in the clinic.... Endless power struggle within staff to manage....

I have requested to re-organise my portfolio, committing my first career suicide in this organisation (Yes I did that! I still didn't believe that I did thou), because I wanted to concentrate on the big project that is coming my way.  Nevertheless, I got it my way.  After April, I should have a better life ahead I hope, and I really have to make it work.

Haven't been sleeping well, not eating well either.  The amount of stress that I have been feeling has found its way up to my shoulders, and I have been experiencing painful headaches throughout the day, and even into the night, affecting my quality of sleep. I have been trying to replenish my sleep during the weekends, but always ended up waking with a pounding headache.

The month of March will be another tension filled month. Endurance will be put to test.

Growing Growing ... Going to E-x-p-l-o-d-i-n-g

Yes, that is how I have been feeling… I have been gorging myself silly since reunion dinner. I can feel my tummy bulging *sObz* and yet I still persisted in eating tidbits, crackers, pineapple tarts and egg rolls nonstop. It’s like trying to fill up an empty hole, or I have a black hole in my tummy *gasps* This guilt is killing me…

Looking at the rate I was binging the past 2 weeks, I expect my weighting machine to officially explode within the next one week. Then my muffin top aka love handles will become permanent resident, my tummy will bulge, my face will become chubby… and I will look hideous *shriEks*

Just yesterday, I am in my magenta dress, its figure hugging, and I truly felt like a barrel *siGh*. I am in a reluctant state to wear those dresses that I bought just last month. What have I done to myself? Just 14 days of festive season, and I am a gonner... I shall resist ALL temptations, and sleep more, eat less, walk more, drink more water.

If by end Feb, I am still bloated and heavy with my muffin top, then I will seek to detox my system. System Reboot!