Finally December

I always love December :)

The magical month of Christmas which marks the end of a year, and always the season to fall in love.  Time seems to always fast forward right after November.

Time to set new resolutions!

I have been recuperating, as my health always seems to deteriorate whenever winter starts.  Well, I just have to take extra care during this season.

Thanks for all the birthday wishes via private messages, I am sorry for not actively updating my blog, gimme sometime ya, I will get it started soon.

Episode 4: The Adventures of PMT (铁牙公主历险记）

Was in a terrible state since my last visit to the dentist, had a re-consultation yesterday, and today I am in agony again.  Apparently due to the recent flu that I had, my lymph nodes swell up, and I have been having a swollen right cheek since 2 weeks ago.  This swell in the right cheek prevents me from chewing food, and even speaking, plus the ulcer on the side of my tongue makes it worst...

Losing weight again, and this time I can see the effect myself: sunken cheeks that resulted in protruding cheekbones, sharpen chin, and weaker legs.  If my swell doesn't go off soon, I think I may be blown away in the next stormy weather :(

But overall, I am satisfied with my MT's progress, my upper teeth are moving fast enough to replace the "虎牙"（pointed tooth）.  Yesterday, Dr Ho decided to take on the aggressive approach, by adding another bracket on my lower right molar, so that my lower teeth can move quicker, and I can have a new jawbite soon.

Although I am in pain, but I am also hopeful that things will improve soon :)

月圆圆

今天是农历八月初十五, 一年一度的中秋节。又是饮茶吃月饼赏月的一晚。

对着皎洁的明月， 和至亲至爱一同赏月，应该会倍感窝心吧？

嫦娥有玉兔相伴, 应该不会寂寞吧?

我以前超爱吟苏轼的《水调歌头》；

明月几时有? 把酒问青天。
不知天上宫阙，今夕是何年。
我欲乘风归去，又恐琼楼玉宇，高处不胜寒。
起舞弄清影，何似在人间。

转朱阁，低绮户，照无眠。
不应有恨，何事长向别时圆。
人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全。
但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。

好难得让我找到（心仪又动听）古筝版的 《但愿人长久》，让我又想弹奏一曲，但我还是别献丑了。

祝大家月圆人团圆！

中秋节快乐！

小小心愿

西雅图，是我理想的歇脚处。

四年前的错之交臂，我有些许遗憾。

虽然它常年阴暗，绵绵细雨，但对我而言是一个及浪漫又感伤的地方。

从小时的电影 “Sleepless in Seattle” 到林凡唱的 “再见西雅图”，无疑加深我对它的向往。

我希望可以独自动身到西雅图去，这辈子至少有这么一回。

当我终于卸下一切的责任后，可以的话，我想头也不回的就移居到那里，度过我的晚年。

千里路迢迢，一个人的身影，虽有一点凄凉，但那里应该有我要的宁静。



Indulgence (Part 3)

Received positive feedback from my female readers, so I am happy to continue with my "Indulgence" series.  So read on my dear friends.....


(Clockwise front to back): Clio Professional Kill Brown Brush Liner, Scholl Compression Long, Fancl Mild Cleansing Oil and Maybelline Make Up Remover (Eye & Lip)

If you do strut around in high heels like I do, I would highly recommend Scholl Compression Long.  This is a pair of medical stocking which works based on compression therapy.  Wear this before going to bed, and it is ideal for relieving tired, aching legs and achieving a pair of toned looking legs.  So that means while I am sleeping, this stocking will help me achieve a slimmer pair of legs, reduce water retention - all these without exercising!!!  Simply put them on, it feels tight upon wearing because of the compression effect, so slip in gently by pulling them up your legs gradually.

Verdict:  I bought this 2 months ago, and I would give it a 5 out of 5 rating.  This cost $50.65, and can be purchase in any pharmaceutical stores.  I see it as a worthy investment, especially I torture my legs cruelly almost everyday.  I do not wear them daily, probably four nights per week, mostly on weekdays.  Not so sure whether does it tone up my legs, but it does provide relief and I wake up in the morning feeling great.  I am very sure this helps improve blood circulation as well, and it keep my legs warm throughout the night.

However, (as usual) I bought the wrong size, this compression stocking should end just above the knee, but mine goes all the way up to the whole leg (Well, I guess my legs are too short)... Well, on the other hand, I get to tone up my thighs at the same time.

I have been avoiding any eye makeups since my medical condition started affecting my eyes.  It has been awhile since my eyes went bare (approximately 2 years I think), recently I started my minimum eye makeup again, and of course with every eye care precaution taken.

Saw this in AMK Hub Watsons yesterday, and out of boredom decided to purchase this Korean brand eyeliner - Clio Professional Kill Brown Brush Liner.  Was actually debating whether should I get the purple gel eyeliner, or the brown brush liner, because for the past 1 week, I have been contemplating whether should I get a purple eyeliner (of another brand) from Sephora Vivo.  In any case, I guess I am not ready for a purple eyeliner yet, and I have decided not to get myself another black eyeliner too, so I bought the brown one instead.

I never have the patience with gel or pencil eyeliner, and I do best with liquid eyeliner at all times.  No, I do not do anything dramatic with eyeliners!  Firstly, I have droopy eyelids that resulted in me having unequal eyes size with inner double eyelids *siGh*, so I just want something to "awaken" my small eyes up.  I am still trying to master the "winged" or "cat eyes" eye makeup technique, but somehow I will landed up looking like a bat instead.  I will get Anna to teach me sooner or later... *mUahahah*

Verdict:  I am super amazed by the tapered brush tip, and it creates the sharpest and thinnest line effortlessly.  Just take a look at the pictures, the brush tip is extremely fine, the texture of the brush feels soft, and not pokey on the delicate eye area.  Before the application, tip the pen downwards, and shake it 2 to 3 times, you will hear a sound similar to the correction pen, then draw in your usual application techniques.  I love the effect with the mascara, it just looked like I have a pair of natural defined eyes, and of course you will have to play up the volume if you wish to have a more dramatic effect.  This is one of the best that I have tried, and it is definitely worth a 4 out of 5 rating.

I have been a fan of Fancl Mild Cleansing Oil since Year 2004.  Heard some reviews of it not working well with oily skin, and it cause small acne bumps around the eye areas.  Come to think of it, I better start observing if this will happen to me too.  I have been switching between Lancome Cleansing Milk and Fancl Cleansing Oil for the past 2 years, so its about time to explore new products, and I probably will try Shiseido Oil Cleanser after I complete this new bottle. 

Verdict:  This cleansing oil removes my makeup, both eye and face.  It removes my waterproof mascara in one wash, and is really mild on the skin.  So far, I am pleased with the effect, and it suits me to a T, for it really is a cleansing oil for the whole face (L~A~Z~Y), and I will end my cleansing regime with Fancl Mild Washing Powder.  I will still recommend this to my friends, even though this is not the most price efficiency product.

Maybelline Makeup Remover for Eye and Lip was a door gift (I forgot from where), and I really did not think much of it, and was even reluctant to try it out as well.  Spotted this in 7-eleven recently, and saw that it was on sale for 2 at $4.20 (if I don't remember wrongly)

Verdict:  I was trying out the "winged" eyeliner technique, and landed up with dramatic thick lines, I saw this product right in front of me, and decided to try it out.  Shake well, and soaked up a cotton pad with it, pressed onto the eye for a few seconds, and the thick makeup just came right off.  Just took me 3 light wipes, without any tugging or pulling, no stinging or irritation on my sensitive eyes, and it really came off cleanly.  That wow me big time! I guess this is really one affordable product that has price and product efficiency in a bottle.  Would give it a 4.5 out of 5 rating!

Episode 3: The Adventures of PMT (铁牙公主历险记）

Today is the day!

Yeah ~ ~ Had my lower braces!  It has been more than 12 hours since I had them, and I am beginning to experience the same sore sensation all over again. 

Dr Ho tighten the wire on my top braces, and fixed the lower braces onto my teeth, immediately I can feel the tightness around my jaw line.  This time Dr Ho has thoughtfully applied Vaseline onto my lips before starting the procedure.  The previous procedure torn my lower lips, and took a while to heal the wound.  As what my doctors would normally exclaimed... I am fragile like a porcelain doll. 

Throughout the procedure, I could not open my mouth wide enough, and I was making terrible noises like "ouch ouch, ahh ahh ahh.... " if any patient were to hear me from outside, I bet they might wanna find the nearest exit.  Finally after the whole ordeal, the nurse was telling me that she could not see the braces at all, again I started gloating and silently thank God for giving me a small mouth.

As expected, the soreness will hang around for the following weeks, and I will be on strict soft diet again until I can start chewing properly.  The problem with me is that whenever I am feeling unwell, or in a state of discomfort, I am always constantly craving for foods that I normally do not fancy.  This time I badly wanna sink my teeth into those cheesy Nachos, toasted bread with sugar and butter.. *yUmmy*

Anyway, I have been compensating myself with my favourite food ever since I could eat properly.  As a result, I put on 1 kg within a week, all thanks to those who made the effort to date me out for lunch and dinner :)

Solitude journeys

I always love going on a bus journey alone.  One that allows me to watch the scenery goes by, and of course I must be seated beside the window, so that I can enjoy the journey better.

It must be a familiar route, so that I do not need to keep a lookout for my alighting bus stop.  The journey must be at least 45 minutes, so that I can truly have a quiet moment of my own.  It is an amazing experience.  Imagine being in a confined, yet moving environment, in the midst of a crowd, feeling alone but not that lonely.  It is a complex, yet simple feeling that puts me at ease.

I always feel the need to be alone, but retreating into my sanctuary aka my bedroom no longer appeals to me.  Unlike the pent up frustrations that stays within the bedroom walls, my thoughts and worries seem to slip away under the moving bus wheels.  My needs for personal space seems to evolve as time goes by.

Perhaps the notion of a one-way ticket will soon overpowered me.

BFF

Met up with my BFF, Anna, last Thursday for a soft diet meal at Crystal Jade Restaurant.

I love their chicken congee, always so smooth and has a pleasing texture to the throat.  They used to have a variety of Dim Sums available on their menu previously, but I didn't seem to see it anywhere this time. 

Was horrified by her stories, and yet always eager to hear more from her.  She is my long lost twin sister, one who shares my thoughts, but execute actions differently from me.  It doesn't take much to communicate my feelings to her, and yes, she understands my inner struggles totally. 

If I can swopped roles with her for a week, my mum will definitely be in for a hard time *haHa* She could set my life back on track, like a Hogwarts Professor with a flick of her wand.  Banish those who treats me carelessly.  I wanna be like a Queen, just like her, she who understands that loving oneself is important.  If only I had love myself more, will I be in a better position then?  

Why is everyone so oblivious to my needs for security?  Somehow people always have a misconception of me.  Those who don't know me, constantly falls onto me for support.  Those who knows me, holds me close, for they know how frail I am.  Those who stood behind me are those who tirelessly support me whenever I run to them with tears...

Do not love me for a reason.  Love me for what I am.

Episode 2: The Adventures of PMT (铁牙公主历险记）

*siGh* I was supposed to have my lower braces fixed today... but I had to postpone it to next week instead.  I had a relapse recently (due to my autoimmune condition), my doctors had a discussion, and all agreed that I should not go ahead with the Orthodontic treatment till my relapse recovered.

Nobody in the office realised I had my MT with me, I didn't encounter any problem in my daily work as well.  The past 2 weeks has been fairly enjoyable being a PMT, not much pain derived from the physical braces, but the surgery that I had for my wisdom tooth is still bothering me big time.  It has been 1.5 months since the surgery, but my wound is still aching and is preventing me from eating well too. Since the surgery till now, I have lost 3kg, and with no doubts, I will lose even more once my lower braces is on.

Well, I have to admit that the first 3 days with the top braces wasn't that fantastic.  This is the period where the teeth started shifting into places, and experiencing sore gums is absolutely normal.  Survived the first week with only soft diet, and somehow I just simply lost the urge to eat.  Now that my surgery wound still hurts, I cannot consume anything that is above room temperature too :(

One dear friend managed to whet up my appetite by tempting me with my favourite Tamago sushi, and I had 4 of it in a row ;)  I am still using the meal replacement milk as a supplement for my daily nutrients intake thou.

Hopefully with enough rest, my relapse will recover over the next few days, so that I can have my lower MT next saturday!

感伤篇 - 涟漪

心若如莲台，为何入莲池

涟漪水中起，思绪万般涕

心有千千语，不知从何提

涟漪无踪影，望叹无从寻

Indulgence (Part 2)

Ok, this posting is again for you ladies :)



From front to back (clockwise): Tony Moly Hand Mask, Nivea Extra Whitening Cell Repair & Protect Body Milk, and Tok Tok Pro-Touch Vibrating Makeup Puff



I was very tempted to try this Nivea Extra Whitening Cell Repair & Protect Body Milk.  Imagine having 50 times of Vitamin C and antioxidants in a bottle! I couldn't resist it, as it was indeed waving hard at me, screaming "take me home, take me home" from the pharmacy shelves.  I am very particular about body moisturiser, and this has none of those nasty-sticky-feel, and I really love the cherry scent on my skin.

Verdict:  To really test this product out, I had tried this daily (before bedtime) for consecutively 10 days, and stop using it for 2 weeks, and today my skin still feels soft and supple.  Not so sure about the whitening effect though because I have a fair complexion to begin with, I supposed I can only be sure of this when I complete this bottle.  Forget about those expensive body moisturisers, for 400ml, and less than $10.00 per bottle.  I would rate is 4 out of 5.

I have tried a few of Tony Moly's products previously, mostly because of their cute containers, but frankly no surprises at all.  Gotten this Tony Moly Hand Mask because I feel that my hands could do some pampering as well.

Verdict:  Either my hands are too rough for any remedy cure, or my current hand moisturiser is doing a good job.  No significant before or after feel.  The apple scent was considered pleasantly pleasing to the nose.  I have forgotten the price for this hand mask, and unlikely a repeat purchase. 

Made another purchase from Groupon again, this time I bought Tok Tok Pro-Touch Vibrating Makeup Puff.  This is made in Korea, and claims to provide the user a natural makeup effect and a more beautiful skin at the same time.

This is a vibrating device that comes with four puff heads: foundation, powder, cleansing and massage.  Basically it vibrates 120,000 times per minutes to help creates an even foundation coverage, it also helps to improve the blood circulation and thus a healthy skin.  So you could use it along with your liquid foundation, loose/pressed power, cleansing or massage products, just by changing the puff heads.

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Verdict: $48.90 for a multifunctional (skincare and makeup) cosmetic tool is a good buy for me.  Normal retail price is SGD 115.  Tried it with my liquid foundation yesterday, and even with my clumsy application, it does provides an even coverage, and there was indeed a tingling sensation beneath the skin too, which I guess was the blood circulation effect.  I have yet to start using this in my normal regime, because as usual, I am l~a~z~y! I shall give you an update once I try this out for my skincare too.

Oh ya! Remember the Tsuya Tsuya Angel's Eye Intense Serum? (Refer to my posting on 16 July 2012 ), I have noticed my right eyelashes has grown quite a fair bit (much more than the left eyelashes... Opps!), my eyelashes does looked stronger and thicker now. Yeah~ ~ :) *blink blink*

The Adventures of PMT (铁牙公主历险记)

PMT means premenstrual tension, which happens to 75% of the ladies, before or during their menstrual period.

But PMT here means Princess with Metal Teeth, aka 铁牙公主。For my non-chinese readers, it reads as "tie ya gong zhu"

I am now officially declared as a PMT, had my first arc (top braces) yesterday morning.  I have been very excited about having my braces on, and has been patiently waiting for 11 August to come.  My dental appointment on 14 July, was to extract my wisdom tooth and a few other tooth to make way for my braces.  The surgery cut for the wisdom tooth has yet to fully recover, my right cheeks is still puffy, and it still hurts to open my mouth wide.  Please be aware that I am one of those who do not recover easily with any cuts or injuries, and they take ages to heal, so please handle me with care ya *wiNk*

Anyway, I still went ahead with the top braces, was making a lot of noises when Dr Ho tries to expand my mouth, and can you believe it, my lower lip was bleeding during the procedure, it just tears up because of the force exerted.  So now I have a wound right in the middle of my bottom lip :( 

Dr Ho has to apply glue onto the surface of my teeth, so that he could stick on the brackets (those squares that sits in the middle of a tooth so as to hold the wire securely), then shone blue light across my teeth, this action will dried up the glue and secured the brackets.  Then an arc-shaped wire was inserted into my mouth, and positioned to fill in between the single bracket, which was then closed up for a snug fit.

I was smiling when I saw those brackets on my teeth (No! I am not crazy!).  In fact the braces stays hidden even when I open my mouth to speak, that is the benefit for having a small mouth *evil laugh*.  The assistant nurse told me to run my tongue across my braces "to get a feel of it"! Ok, here is another secret, I have a very short tongue as well, in fact, I couldn't even ran my tongue across my teeth *siGh*

I love my braces, but the pain came after a few hours later... *sObz*  It has not cause me any major problem (yet) like most of my friends encountered, but my front teeth hurts terribly (because the teeth are trying to move into the correct positions), and again I couldn't chew properly.  I had only managed to start eating well after my last dental procedure on 21 July (removal of the stitches inside my mouth), and now I have to go back to my milk diet again.  Luckily I heeded Dr Ho's advise to fix the lower braces in another 2 weeks time.

Well, tomorrow will be a challenging day at work, first day in the office with my braces on.  How am I gonna cope with talking non-stop on the phone, and let me see if any of my colleagues realised my MT's existence. Oh! I have an appointment with a lecher client tomorrow, let me flash my MT at him if he tries to be funny with me.

Hungry ~ ~ Time for milk!!!

Bye Bye July, Hello August

Phew!  What a month July has been!

Watched "Ice Age 4", and was laughing so hard in the cinema.  Not bad for a stress reliver, although I seriously cannot recall a single plot of the storyline.

Attended EXSA last Monday, and was again amazed at how dedicated and passionate some people are about customer service.  It could be an inborn trait, or a skill accquired during the course of work, and not forgetting plenty of encounters with demanding customers that shapes the service mindset.  A veteran of the banking industry for 35 years, and a fourth time getting an EXSA Star award is definitely worth a standing ovation.

Was in a mad, mad rush again to complete my CSR Part 2 assignment on Thursday, in just less than 24 hours before submission time on 3 August before 7pm.  Yes yes yes, Opps I did it again!  Thank god that I managed to spot "Lee Burke" article in the midst of the (horrendously thick) lecture notes, and decided to use that theory framework for my analysis.  By 2am in the morning, I was sending distress signal to my coursemate, and he was in shock when I started discussing Burke's theory with him.  Getting panicky is no good especially when the deadline is fast approaching, after much discussion, he will ploughed on without Burke, while I holding on to Burke desperately for my dear life.

Last minute work, mad rush, struggled till 4am and it was finally done. Not my best individual piece of work, but nevertheless glad to get rid of it.  But alas, I couldn't print my assignment as I wasn't aware that I ran of of plain paper.  Slept for less than 3 hours, and was in a zombie state in the office.  The whole episode only ended when I rushed to submit my precious work during lunch time, and came the finale... I was drenched from head-to-toe in the heavy downpour, and started shivering with cold in the office.

Imagine the blissful state I was in when I finally get to rest my poor bones on my bed.

Then came the news from my coursemate:- most of our coursemates adopted the Burke's framework, which came as a relief to me, and naturally bad news to him :( Now I could only wait and see if I can scrape through this module.

Bedtime

Nowadays, I have been sleeping early.  Bedtime is usually 11pm on weekdays, and 10pm on weekends.  Sometimes, I can go to bed as early as 9pm on a Saturday.

I guess age is catching up eventually, I need at least 8 hours of sleep daily.  Occasionally I will lose sleep, and once I have less than my desired amount of sleep, I will be in a wrecked state the following day.

By going to bed early, I can compensate for my lackness in the sleep quality.  Athough I still wake up feeling lethargic, but I am more focus during the daytime, without much sign of tiredness.

I love it when I wake up at 2am to replenish my water intake or toilet visit, knowing that I still have a lot more hours before my annoying alarm jolt me up from my precious sleep.

My Chinese Physician told me before, my illness comes from severe lack of sleep, and high mental stress, resulting in slow building and replenishing of blood.  So I must have sufficient rest, and plenty of sleep to regularize my immune system.

I always needed a lot of sleep since young, probably due to my inherited beta thalassemia minor trait, but my mum used to think that I am lazy, and loves to drag me up whenever I wanna sleep in.  But now, she just let me sleep on, knowing that I need it more than anything else.

Once in a while, I do lose sleep... but nothing beats having absolute silence to mull through thoughts and feelings, and when I ran out of "what if", I know that it is time to curl into my blanket, and console myself that all is not lost, while I try to fall asleep.

Indulgence (Part 1)

I am in touch with my feminine side recently.  Ok ok, I confessed! That is just an excuse for my retail therapy.  Bought a few items, tried them, and I love it!  So ladies, this post is for you ya!



(Left to right): Sugar Lip Polish, Soap & Glory Body Scrub, Tsuya Tsuya Angel's Eye Intense Serum, Benefit Hervana Blush

  
I love the Sugar Lip Polish, the brown sugar particles gently exfoliate dead skin cells, while shea butter and jojoba oil hydrates and conditions the lips.  Hmmm, I remember reading it somewhere that it also remove wrinkles as well.  The lady's recommendation was to use twice a week for best results, but I only use it once a week, or whenever I feels like it. 

Verdict: This product is made in U.S.A.  For $29.00, it is a useful remedy for dry cracked lips, and depending on how frequent you use, it should last you for more than a year.  Definitely easy to use.  Just apply over your lips, and leave on for about 2 minutes or more. After which, in circular motions, gently massage the sugar particles to do a lip scrub.  Then rinse off using damp towel, and your lips will be soft and tender.  Viola! *mUacks*


The Scrub Of Your Life is one of the best body scrub I have used!  It has a fruity scent, that comes with a thick pink gellish substance and contains many tiny scrubbing beads.

Verdict: Trust me, bathing has become such an enjoyable affair, for just $19.00.  Just squeeze out a handful and gently smooth onto your body.  The thick foam is so inviting, and the micro scrubbing beads is refined enough to buff away the dryness on your skin, surely you will fall in love with the fruity scent which is so pleasing to the nose.  Warning: Once you rinse off thoroughly, you can't help wanting to touch your skin over and over again ;)


Tsuya Tsuya Angel's Eye Intense Serum is one of the product that I bought from Groupon.  This clear solution acts as a conditioner that encourages growth of strong and healthy lashes, it can be use on eye lashes and eye brows.

Verdict: I bought this at $13.90 from Groupon, and the original retail price is at $38.00.  I have a soft spot for natural long eye lashes, hence I have been following instructions:- to use it twice daily, once in the morning and once at night. Well, it has been a few days, since I have gotten it only last Wednesday, hopefully my eye lashes can grow longer and thicker.

I am not a Benefit Cosmetic user (tried one of their foundation previously, read earlier post on March 16, 2009), but Benefit Hervana Blush just blew me off.  The Benefit box-o-powder comes with a mirror and an angled soft brush.  There are four beautiful shades in this box (divine peach, berry delight, lucky shell, and heavenly rose), giving off a natural flush on the cheeks.

Verdict: It gives me a healthy princess glow, and it smells great!  Just swirl these beautiful shades together and sweep it across your cheekbones for a gorgeous flush.  For $49.00, it is definitely worthwhile, the blush powder are miraculously ultra fine.

I have gotten them from Sephora Vivo City outlet, except the Tsuya Tsuya Angel's Eye Intense Serum.  Do give it a try :)  I am still trying out a few more products, and will give you a review once I am done. 

I am now happily soft lipped, sweet smelling from the body scrub, and already applied my eye lash conditioner, I am ready for bed!

Goodnight!

In pain

During my hospitalisation previously, the doctors realised that I have some problem with swallowing.  After much observation, I was diagnosed with a small throat opening, and to make things worse, I have a very small mouth with big teeth, hence a misaligned jaw bite, resulting in me choking on my food most of the time.

Recently, my doctor brought up this issue again, as she is worried about me eventually having "Sleep Apnea" - a temporary suspension of breathing occurring repeatedly during sleeping due to small throat opening (http://www.wr-ent.com/6-throatCare.html).  Sure I can take small bites during eating or drinking, but she does not want my sleep quality to deteriorate as I grow old.

Met up with an Orthodontist last week.  Dr Henry Ho will be correcting my jawline, so that I can stop choking on my food.  He found my case very challenging, because of my tight-lips, while he was doing the photographing and teeth mould, I could not open my mouth big enough for the device and mould to go in.  The nurse was enlisted to put in the lip extension "spades", and stretched me at the corners of mouth.  Was in tears by the time the assessment were done, and Dr Ho jokingly said that my "Hello Kitty mouth is larger by one inch *dUh*

Dr Yeo kicked start my treatment yesterday, by removing one of my wisdom tooth, and extracted a few teeth to make space for the braces.  Chosen the IV sedation, was supposed to be in "twilight zone", but I landed up falling asleep for 1.5 hours, hmmm... as usual IV sedation always knocks me out.  Suspected that she used a clamp to widen my mouth for the extraction, because there are many scratches at the sides

of my mouth, blood clots on my bottom lips, and my whole mouth felt sore and numbed.


1st day












2nd day (look at the 2 needle holes!)

My right cheek now is all swollen, bruises and pain extended all the way to the neck area, all because of the extraction of the wisdom tooth.  The stitches are killing me, and I cannot open my mouth any bigger too.  Now it can only fit in a small metal teaspoon, and I am taking even smaller mouthful of food.  To complete my daily intake of nutrition, I am drinking my all-time favourite "Ensure" canned milk three times a day.

Stitches will be removed next Saturday, and will be starting my top braces first.  I can't wait for it to happen, although one thing is for sure, I will be having a swollen mouth again :(





Close Shave

This took place when I stepped out of the office building on Friday, and was approached by a mid-fifties man, in business attire, with a decent looking tie.  He has mistaken me for another lady by the name of "Eve", I walked off after telling him nicely that it was a case of mistaken identity, he started pacing beside me, and asked if I find him familiar?

I paused in my stride, looked right into his eyes, and said in my annoyed tone "No".  He kept repeating that it is normal if I do not have any recollection.  I quickened my pace and changed course to the nearest taxi stand, while he was tagging behind calling me "Eve".

Great! I did not have a fantastic day at work, and I am now being pestered by a psychopath, who has mistaken me as "Eve", and wanted to send me home - to another side of the island - Bishan? *roll eyeballs*

Despite me constantly warning him that I am in going to scream if he comes any closer, he maintained his distance, and continued his one-way communication for another 5 minutes or so, while I was praying hard for a miracle.  Why on earth is the "Book-a-cab hotline" so busy on a early Friday night?  Shortly, prayers were answered.  Thank god for the guy at the front of the taxi stand queue, who was observant enough to notice that I am in distress, and offered to let me go up the cab first.  I only had a brief moment to smile weakly at him, and offered a word of thanks, hopped into the cab, without looking back at Mr "Adam".

Whoever you are, Mr Kind Soul, much appreciated for saving my day :)

Park

Thanks to the sweltering heat, I have been suffering from this terrible pounding headache for weeks.  But I am not going to succumb to the sweet invitation of those pain killers. 

Took a walk in the park today after work... I remember taking my sister to the playground with her tricycle, with a cute little basket holding our shovels for sandcastle making... we were very young then, life was simple though not that carefree... When I was in my teens, waking up early to meet my classmates to jog in the park was a weekly affair, my best friend fell for one of my jogging mates, but things turned the other way, and we fell out when we were in Secondary 3...  My first walk with a JC guy friend... My first encounter with a lesbian...    

Time really flies, it has been 27 years since I stepped into this estate.  This park has seen me at different stages of my life, wearing cutesy school shoes till fancy high heels now, its paths bore my footprints with my love ones; sometimes side-by-side, sometimes one ahead of another.  Some paths are meant to be shared, some intertwined, and some - alone...

I think I better stop walking the park for awhile.  I better stay indoor, safe in my sanctuary, away from the heat, away from the memories.

感伤篇 - 逃跑

好想逃。。。

逃离吵杂的办公室，逃离喧哗的城市，奔向无人的边际。

为什么？是厌恶？失望？困惑？无奈？挫折感？还是累了？

之前，我深信条条大路是我无限的伸展台，藏不住的自信，挡不住的傲气。 多么的独一无二，唯我独尊！

但现在的我，有一种 “众人醉，唯我清醒” 的孤寂。

该离席了。

姐妹淘

It has been awhile since I met LF.  Had a great night out with her, busy updating each other with our life happenings, mostly me talking, and she as usual, patiently lend me her ears...  Well, she loves my new short hair, and was "captivated" by my fringe *muahaha* I am so happy that she is starting her new job this month end, and overjoyed that her wedding date has been settled.  明年我要嫁妹妹了!  要帮她办嫁妆咯，美美的做新娘，她一定会幸福，至少会比姐姐我幸福吧 :)  你（小胖）要好好照顾我妹妹哦！

Was waiting for cab in the basement (@ Central) all alone, I was so terrified.  Luckily the cab came (about 10 minutes later), but I wasn't in a chatty mood and that cab driver kept discussing "immigrant problem" throughout the journey. 

Was nearly involved in a car accident on the PIE, along Eunos Flyover.  I had already realised that the car in front was stationary, but the cab driver only stepped on the brakes after I screamed out loud.  3 cars ahead were involved in the accident, and we were the 5th car, the red Mazda behind was just inches away.  Thank god I have my seat belt on, I was practically plunged forward, and luckily he heeded my cries of terror, but was having chest pain the whole night.

Been having bad headache for the past one week, medicated oil seems to be my best friend now, maybe due to lack of sleep, maybe excessive stress, maybe maybe...

Time for bed! Goodnight!

感伤篇 - 季节

我已经很久不听中文歌了。。。

今天又听见这首歌，心里酸酸的，万千思绪涌上心头。

《秋意浓》。。。是多有意境的一首歌啊～

尤其钟爱这一段：

“舞秋风，漫天回忆舞秋风。叹一声，黯然沉默。”

1993 年是这首歌的发表年份。

那一年我写了：

“叶子离开了深爱着的大树。

是风的猛烈追求，还是大树的不挽留”

当时我还是个天真的学生妹。而今天的我，多了些许的沧桑。


历经近20年，我在不同的阶段，对这首歌的体会还是一样 - - 哀愁。


多美丽的歌词。 “离别多， 叶落的季节离别多”


人的一生有多少离别？


记得的。忘记的。在意的。不在意的。


别太认真，梦一场罢了，过眼云烟，谁都不属于谁的。

献给明白我的人。。。

L-plate Tai-Tai

Today I did some roaming again, and this time I landed up at Changi View Point (just opposite Expo MRT station).  This is my second time visiting this place, and this could be one of my favourite hangout soon.  Despite Expo is brimming with activities, this place is so blissfully quiet.

I did some retail therapy.  In fact, I have been doing a lot of retail therapy recently, well geesh, never mind that :p Money cannot purchase any happiness, but it does provide some emotional relief to a certain extent.

Spent a great deal of time chilling out at Starbucks with a book, and sipping my all-time favourite Strawberry & Cream.  Fantastic service, and the crew members are so friendly, the manager and cashier seems to be around whenever I looked up for assistance.  Nice!

Was really supposed to do my Corporate Social Responsibility (CSR) assignment, but I guess I really need some rest.  Yesterday was a busy busy day, only managed to hit the bed in the early morning.  Well, I still have 6 more days before the dateline, I promise I will really do it tomorrow... keke

When I was in JC, one of my BFF, Kenny told me that I am a potential Tai-Tai in training, and I used to laugh it off.  But now it does seems like a good idea. Haha!  L-A-Z-Y ~ ~ ~

"Seal" with a kiss

I am down with flu today *sObz*, the drowsy medicine did not make me sleepy at all.

Was racking through my old mp3 folder, and came across this song - "Stand By Me".  It just makes me smile and it brings back a lot of bittersweet memories, which I can traced it back to my secondary school days, and the last memory was etched in Year 2003.

Heard many renditions of it, but still prefers Seal's version.

I must be getting old, for being sentimental is not my usual style *siGh*. Found another song from Seal - Kiss by a Rose, which always never fails to make me slow waltz along with it.

This is the OST for the movie "Batman forever".  I was never a fan of Batman, and I have forgotten why I agreed to watch this in the theatre.  All I can recall is this song, somehow the rhythm and melody just keeps me captivate till now.

Ok, time to get back to my research on my assignment, must really get it done and over with by this weekend. 

 

Mid-2012

June!  I love it because I have survived half of Year 2012.

Gosh! I am so tied down with assignments recently, there is a "Strategic Management" assignment due on the 4 June, and another "Corporate Social Responsibility" due before 15 June. 

Yes, yes yes, I regret not starting them early, but I am really clueless about the topics that I should formulate for both the assignments.  I can only cross my fingers and blow kisses to my marks *mUack* if I still cannot have something decent before the deadlines.

Chilling out at my favourite coffee outlet, one of those days where
I could sit back and relax to watch the crowd.  Recently, being alone is not such a terrifying feat anymore (I must have gotten used to loneliness), but *hurhur* I must be in a stationary corner, the moving crowd still scares me.  My fringe is killing me, but it kinda hides my chubby face, so I will live with it for the time being.

Everyone keeps exclaiming that I lost weight, which is not fine with me, because I need to buy new clothes.  And my buddy said I have become so translucent that I am on my way to becoming transparent, hey that I can overcome by buying a shade darker for my foundation :) (but buddy, remember the umbrella joke?)

Another reason why I was looking forward to this June was because my favourite animation is back ;) Madagascar 3 is gonna be the first animation movie that I will be catching this 7 June.  Love those penguins, so annoyingly mischevious and funny.

12 July is the official release date for "Ice Age 4 movie" in Singapore, and I can't sit still for it :)  Not that I can remember the first 3 movies, but I look forward to just laugh myself silly inside the movie threatre.

But I am so disappointed that "Despicable Me 2" will be a year later in July 2013.  I am a big fan of the first movie, I hope the second movie will be good as well, and good things are worth waiting for.  Patience is a virtue.

Ok, back to my assignment! Awwww....

Random...

Do you know that... ...

"Ignoring someone's existence is as good as a life sentence imprisonment"

"Faking nonchalant means a bleeding heart whenever I smiles"

"When you think it is of the best interests for someone, you have already caged her up"

"Sometimes, to demolish and rebuild is the best solution, if other methods failed.  It may not be a guaranteed positive outcome, but rather than lurking in that dead corner, I would rather choose destruction.  Even if it means breaking someone's heart, crush it to none, then use time and patience to rebuild that faith."

My not-so random thoughts
********************* 

I was going through some ancient emails, and I came across this Youtube link.  Someone whom I know many years back sent me this.  He has seen me cried so many times, and each time I had also turned down his kindness when he offered me his shoulders.

He emailed me a few quotes once: "I realised I have given her the right to hurt me when I said I love her" and "趁我还爱你， 你是否可以不要错过我?”(Can you treasure me while I am still in love with you?).

I replied his email with "很多时候说出来的话语可能都是假的" (Words spoken may not be real at times).  That was in Year 2007. 

Someone whom I could not recall, and never cross my mind until I came across his emails today...  I hope he is happy where ever he is now.  If I do meet him again, I will be telling him "很多时候说出来的话语可能都是假的, 但一起经历的事与物才是真的！(Words spoken may not be real at times, but encounters and memories shared will always be real)".

I could totally feel the hurt he felt years ago.

Year 2012 - I will be re-freezing my heart again.

Galaxy

Men are from Mars, and Women are from Venus.  True?

Definitely!  Different element compositions found on the two planets, chemical reactions bound to be explosive and destructive in some situations.  If yours and yours' truly are non-reactive, then you may wish to explore some other planets in the galaxy.

Well, I am not in the mood to write about love relationships.  Look elsewhere, or if you need help, just gimme a call, I will be able to hook you up with another Aunt Agony.  Yes, I quit being Aunt Agony!

Astrologically Venus is retrograding (means moving backwards in the orbit path) this season, from May 15 till June 27.  All matters concerning appearances, finances, official contracts and affairs of the heart will be taking a backstage at the moment.  Come to think of it, I trimmed my hair on the May 15, which kind of explains why I am not satisfied with it.  Ya ya ya, I am always unhappy when it comes to my locks of hair.  Maybe I should just do a face off just to simplify the matter... Plastic surgery?  Or can I just have a change of identity please?

Jupiter is my guardian planet, the planet of good fortune, which seems to deprive me of all things that I love recently.  With a series of events happening, I have been given an opportunity to take on a bystander view or broader view of my life, it is a good chance to set things right and put them in the right perspective.  Teething stage is always tough, it may even come across as painful, not just to me but for the people around me as well.  I have chosen my way, and I do not need any permission from anyone, for I am absolutely capable of being responsible for my own actions and decisions. 

I have friends that loves me, and buddies that treats me like *ahem* princess.  For them, I must not be afraid to fall! 

Celebrating Friendship

I have known my Buddy since my sweet sixteen.  He is one gem who has unconditionally find time to check on my well-being from time to time, who is always awake at weird timings to reply my wee morning sms-es, someone who will drop his work aside, just to meet me for a one-hour lunch, at my very last minute request. Yes, I am that "spoilt", but I do not do it often!

Our friendship goes a long way back, surprisingly not much during JC times, but it all started during our Uni days, despite having different backgrounds, being in different schools, a few phone calls, and only meet up once a year for dinner.  He has been in and out of relationships, and I had never met any of his 3 ex-girlfriends, not even his current girlfriend.  I am sure our JC friends cannot ever imagine that it is possible for us to even start a "buddy-ship".

How strange!  I have spent half my lifetime knowing him!

I remembered when I was hospitalised in TTSH, and was so afraid in my B2 ward, nurses were rushing in and out of the ward, elders were moaning in pain.  That moment I felt the frailness of life, and was practically weeping uncontrollably into my pillow, it just took me a sms, and he responded like a life-line, and after a few hours of sms-ing, eventually I managed to fall asleep. 

To him, I am always stubborn yet vulnerable, and he knows too well that I am a blur sotong with plenty of weird notions.  I think he will continue to let me be what I wanna be, and he will just be patient with me, like a daddy to a child, whenever I start crying for help.